Living with PCOS

My face was covered with small bumps, my skin was itchy and foggy, I never had acne even as a teenager. Concerned I visited a dermatologist. She asked me if – I was always tired? I had put on weight? Were my periods were irregular? I had yes to all! A big YES. She said – “I suspect you have PCOS”.

My reaction was – “What is PCOS? How can I cure it? When will my skin heal from the acne?”

She wrote a few tests and advised me to consult a gynaecologist. I got the tests done and  visited a reputed Gynaecologist. The gynaecologist confirmed I had PCOS and started me on Diane 35, M2 tone. I was advised to lose weight and make dietary changes. I was 29. My weight had moved from a good 54 to 68 kgs in less than a year.

This started my battle with weight, skin issues, mood swings, doctor visits that I tried to counter with numerous diets, allopathic medicines, naturopathy, homeopathy and Ayurveda.

I am 35 now. I weigh 86 kgs at the moment. My BMI is overly obese. I always have back ache. It’s been 2 months to my last period.

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In the last 6 years I have lost weight, gained weight, my periods have become regular and then again irregular.

I have come from a bad marriage to a loving partner, made my career.

What I have learnt in the last 6 years –

  1. This is not a BATTLE, but a JOURNEY. I do not need to fight. I need to heal. Mentally and physically. It takes time. But it is worth it.
  2. Diets do not work. Healthy eating does. Healthy eating is not temporary changes but a lifestyle.
  3. Exercising is important, more important than those medicines. Any form of exercise is good.
  4. Food is not just for “comfort”. But good food can be healing!
  5. You cannot fully heal physically unless you heal mentally.
  6. Its ok to feel pain and talk about it.
  7. 100% honesty with your doctor.
  8. Do not expect immediate changes. Let the healing take its course.
  9. Accept yourself, forgive yourself, love yourself!

Living with PCOS is not easy. I am trying to heal and better myself. For now I am just accepting myself!

This is me at 26, no PCOS and a different life.

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I know I can never be that person again. I can better, wiser and older. And I want to do just that!

 

 

 

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